An unlovable monster

I HATE it when you say sorry when we know it's my fault.

I HATE it when you keep saying you love me when all I do is be a bitch towards you.

I HATE it when you wait for me to be a better person and I don't even try.

I HATE it when you put so much faith in me only to get them all broken again and again and again.

I HATE it when you give your everything even though I give you nothing.

I HATE IT that I'm hurting you everytime yet I can't seem to stop.

I HATE IT that I'm loved when I know I don't deserve an ounce of it.

I HATE IT that you're still staying when you have all the reasons to leave.

I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.

I HATE ME.

Why can't you just do the same?